not giving up

"Lazy Dayz of Summer!" 

Why has my brain and body decided to rebel against this saying?   Seems pretty simple but yet I have only slept in a few days this summer vacation.   Yes I set my alarm every other day for 4:45am to get up and run and for some strange reason my body actually gets out of bed to run.   Even the days I don't run I am waking up way to early for summer.    I do sleep in a little on the weekends thank goodness.  
Running has been going ok.  Ok as in I haven't giving it up yet.   I am not trying to run long distances, which is great because I can't.   I do run 2 miles, sometimes 2.5 miles and if I am lucky 3 miles without stopping to walk.   Can you believe it?   I don't walk any of it.   I run the whole stinking thing.   Well it's more like a run/jog but I don't walk and I haven't given up ANDDDDDD I do it at the crack of dawn.  I have shed alot of time off my mile pace in the last few months so that makes me happy.   That means I am actually burning more calories, and getting home faster. 

Now here is the kicker.   I have started going back to the gym at night too.  Gasp!   What the heck, right?  I am supposed to be sleeping in and staying up late eating ice cream and more ice cream, but there is some workout demon that has gotten ahold of my brain and I have not been able to get rid of it.   Not a bad thing I guess.   My jeans still fit, I have more endurance than I have had in a long time, I still get tired (need to get my thyroid nodule under control) but for the most part it has been a good thing.   Go figure, excersise has been good for me.   Maybe it is my control issues, but I refuse to let lifes struggles make me fat.   I can't say in a few years that I am fat because of challenges in my life, that would be stupid.  I would be fat because I chose to let myself be fat.  I can't do it.   I would rather control that part of my life then let it control me.     So I am choosing to make my weaknesses my stregnths and make me physically and mentally stronger.    Wouldn't it be fun to have a picture of me running to put with this post?   Heck No!  There is a reason I get up early to run, it is so nobody sees me.   So for now you can use your imagination (and make it a good imagination please).  

So that's my not so lazy update on my running.