so not a runner

I am very competitive. Always have been and always will be. I am sometimes more competitive with boys than with girls. I think I just always want to prove that anything boys can do girls can do better. I don't always succeed but I love the thrill of trying. As I get older I find I can't keep up like I used to. In school when we had PE I always made sure I was one of the fastest when we would run a mile. I was always one of the first girls picked on the softball team or basketball team at PE and recess. I remember alot of the girls would play on the bars and do a swinging pull over. It is where you hold a high bar and swing you body until you can swing and pull yourself up and over on top of the bar. I had never done it before but it looked easy. One morning I got to school alittle early to see if I could do it with no one watching. As I started to practice a girl walked up and said, "can you do a swinging pull over?" I said " yes". LIAR! So she said lets do one at the same time. OH THE PRESSURE! The competitive person just comes out at the right time and I did a swinging pull over. YIPPEE. The liar pulled through. I was not going to be the girl who couldn't do it.

I am never the best at anything and I think I am ok at that, I just don't want to be the worst. Now I know Glade is thinking this is about Tetris, but it's not. Even though I am still bitter that his score is higher than mine and I have this aching desire to get back on the game and try to beat his score. This is about running. I want to run in a race with some of my lady friends. I went to the gym and I could barely make it one lap and then I had to walk. Crazy, that is just not me. I could always do it. Everyone tells me baby steps. Run alittle bit further everyday. So I am going to stick with that advice and try for a lap and a half with out killing myself this week. I think I don't even like running. I get bored listening to my music. I like running on the treadmill at the gym because I can watch tv, so much more fun. I always loved rollerblading because if you get tired you just stop and the wheels keep rolling so you are still moving. It's fabulous. However, I do want to do a race with the ladies so I am on to give this a go and see how I do. I figure if I blog about it, I will be more accountable to keeping myself going. There will be boring running updates that will be more of a scorecard for myself to see how I am doing. Wish me luck and pray for me. Maybe I will begin to enjoy this and my high blood pressure will go down.