Sunny Side

Decisions

I am not sure how most people make decisions. I know alot of people who think things completely through to make sure the outcome is what works for them. I know some people make decisions based on how it will effect other people. Others make decisions for selfish reasons. Everyone has there own way of making decisions. I seem to make alot of my decisions based on my gut feeling. Probably not the way most people do it, but so far it has always worked out for me. When I start to lean one way or another and it is not a good decision I always get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I immediately change the coarse of my decision. Then when I make a decision and I feel at peace I know it is the right decision.

The decision I had to make

Yesterday I had a really hard time with my normal decision making routine. Tuesday night when returning home from my fun evening with my girls I received the calls and email telling me my grandfather had died. I was not sure how I felt about it, but in reading my siblings blogs I have felt much better about things. My problem was whether or not to fly to Utah to attend the funeral. My gut instinct was not helping me out this time. I was not getting any magical signals that I was waiting for. Then my most handsome best friend called me and I asked him what he thought I should do and he said that I needed to make my decision for myself without worrying about what anyone else was doing or what anyone else wanted me to do. He would support any decision I made. Hmmm that would mean I would have to be a selfish decision maker. So I wouldn't drag it out I gave myself a 2 hour time frame to have this decision made. Yes, I took the whole 2 hours and knowing that my decision would effect my sister since she would probably go with me if I went and if I didn't go and she did she would be going alone. I set all that aside and made the decision for myself not to go. Knowing that this decision would please many in my family and upset others I knew it was the right choice for me. I called Thayne and my sister and my cousin and my brother and told them I would not be going. I am thankful that they all understood. I feel so much better and I love that the stress of it is all over.

I now feel at peace

After I told Thayne my decision, I asked him what he would have done. I am not going to say what he said but I knew once he said it I felt much better about everything. I don't think I like all this grown up decision making. It was so much more fun when my hardest decision was what pair of shoes to buy or what movie to go see. This grown up stuff stinks. Thayne always says he loved it when he was younger, hanging out with his friends having $20 in his pocket and not a care in the world. Now the good times are hanging out with with my husband and my kids and them all having $20 bucks in their pockets then I don't have a care in the world. Now another chapter of my life is complete and I am moving on to the next. I am thankful for these growing experiences that make me realize what is important in my life.